you know, i started this blog to help me lose weight but, quite honestly, it's not working...so i started thinking about my title... a work in progress...i am a work in progress in so many ways, and quite honestly the least important is 30 lbs! so here are some other areas i need to work on in my life, ways i am a work in progress (in no particular order)
~ i want to be a better mother, i think i am a pretty good mother, but i want to do more with ethan, sometimes in the hustle and bustle of life we forget to make some memories...
~ i want to catch up on my scrapbooking...i used to do this all the time, but ethan is 2 and i have literally 1 page done!
~ i want to work on my patience...i tend to get frustrated with those closest to me, my husband and my son...that's not fair
~ i want so much more of God! i desire to be more consistent in my prayer and bible study...can anyone agree? :)
~i want more faith! i want to be a woman of faith...not wavering or doubting my God!
~i need to work on my self-control....enough said?
~and now, i want to go to sleep! i need to go to bed earlier and eat better to take better care of my body!

good night! :)

a week off...

so saturday i'm moving...we are going back to virginia...i have decided that this week, i can eat!
i am an emotional eater and this week will be emotional! i've also decided that my body just doesn't lose weight unless i am working out! i can cut back on all kinds of food, but unless i am exercising it just doesn't work for me...so once we move...it's back to walking with Leslie! and walking around my townhouse development...

hungry?

you know, this only eating when hungry is not quite as difficult as i thought! it is freeing to know you can eat whatever you want just to stop when you're full. i am definitely an emotional eater so i still have to tell myself "you're not hungry, you're just (nervous, upset, discouraged, bored, etc)"
the other night i told myself, "you know you don't have to have something to eat while you watch tv" and at least for that night i didn't...

one day at a time!

so far...

so today i'm not eating unless i'm hungry...right now...i'm not hungry- but i wish i was!
so i'm going to try and distract myself...but just so everyone knows, while i am putting the wash away...i wish i was hungry so i could be eating a butterscotch krimpet tastykake...mmmmm :)

war...didn't go so well...

so i just finished reading the last blog i posted...it's so sad...i declared war...but alas, there was no war!

so here i am...may, 2 months later and the 30 lbs is definitely still there! i think i may have actually gained some more...i haven't hit the scale in awhile...i'm scared

i keep telling myself that my diet starts tomorrow...so that night i give myself permission to eat whatever i want...but tomorrow comes and goes and all i have done is pigged out again!



i read an article in a magazine about this lady who says it's not about dieting or restricting certain foods, but just stopping when you are full...it sounds like such an easy concept, but yet it is unbelievably difficult...at least for me, apparently for the thin population its not a problem!



maybe i'll try that...stopping when i am full....i'll let you know how that goes!

weight "problems"

sometimes, blogging about my weight problems seems petty...many people out there have so many more important "problems" that my "battle" with 30 lbs seems so insignificant....i have so much to be thankful for, is it wrong to worry about this? not necessarily wrong, as long as i keep this all in perspective...for tonight i will be happy with my 30 extra pounds...tomorrow...it's war!

last week

last week was.........bad! i was crazy busy and had no time to exercise...so of course, my eating was not good either, and b/c i was stressed (busy and not exercising) i ate really bad- to somehow compensate....i'm starting to realize that eating when i'm upset doesn't help...it only makes me more upset after i'm done...so then i'm upset and fat!

oh well, next week will be better...it has to be!