hungry?

you know, this only eating when hungry is not quite as difficult as i thought! it is freeing to know you can eat whatever you want just to stop when you're full. i am definitely an emotional eater so i still have to tell myself "you're not hungry, you're just (nervous, upset, discouraged, bored, etc)"
the other night i told myself, "you know you don't have to have something to eat while you watch tv" and at least for that night i didn't...

one day at a time!

so far...

so today i'm not eating unless i'm hungry...right now...i'm not hungry- but i wish i was!
so i'm going to try and distract myself...but just so everyone knows, while i am putting the wash away...i wish i was hungry so i could be eating a butterscotch krimpet tastykake...mmmmm :)

war...didn't go so well...

so i just finished reading the last blog i posted...it's so sad...i declared war...but alas, there was no war!

so here i am...may, 2 months later and the 30 lbs is definitely still there! i think i may have actually gained some more...i haven't hit the scale in awhile...i'm scared

i keep telling myself that my diet starts tomorrow...so that night i give myself permission to eat whatever i want...but tomorrow comes and goes and all i have done is pigged out again!



i read an article in a magazine about this lady who says it's not about dieting or restricting certain foods, but just stopping when you are full...it sounds like such an easy concept, but yet it is unbelievably difficult...at least for me, apparently for the thin population its not a problem!



maybe i'll try that...stopping when i am full....i'll let you know how that goes!

weight "problems"

sometimes, blogging about my weight problems seems petty...many people out there have so many more important "problems" that my "battle" with 30 lbs seems so insignificant....i have so much to be thankful for, is it wrong to worry about this? not necessarily wrong, as long as i keep this all in perspective...for tonight i will be happy with my 30 extra pounds...tomorrow...it's war!

last week

last week was.........bad! i was crazy busy and had no time to exercise...so of course, my eating was not good either, and b/c i was stressed (busy and not exercising) i ate really bad- to somehow compensate....i'm starting to realize that eating when i'm upset doesn't help...it only makes me more upset after i'm done...so then i'm upset and fat!

oh well, next week will be better...it has to be!

pilates!

so, i've done pilates twice now....i used a video on exercise tv on comcast on demand...it was called gentle pilates...i figured for my first time it would be beginner-like...well, the instructor said that she created it especially for 50+...well, that's not me, but i tried it anyway and that 50+ pilates- kicked my butt! it was a good work-out though....

i am especially proud of myself for resisiting a hot-cinnamon bun for dessert tonight...and i made them! instead i had a bowl of strawberries w/ a little sugar on top for flavor :)

good night!

the plan...

okay, here is my plan for losing the last 30 lbs... i am "kinda" counting points...i would love to officially join weight watchers, but quite honestly i can't afford it, so i have the material and i am doing it on my own...i am exercising...i love walk away the pounds so i walk 1 or 2 miles 4 days a week and i have just recently added some pilates to the mix...so that's the plan...i am also cutting down my portion sizes...i use a child size plate and i am staying away from seconds...it's always hard at the beginning until my body gets used to the lesser amount, then it gets easier...we'll see...